paint the sky

treasures.

2010-06-10T12:58:00.002-04:00

Top 5 things that make me feel 7 again

2010-05-26T22:46:00.007-04:00

1. Harry Potter.

This book series and the movies seriously makes me want to be at Hogwarts. I started reading them the year they came out & have followed it ever since. it's something i can always read & really get into. The movies are great but the books are sooo much better:)
I mean who doesn't want to go to a place where you can fly on broom sticks while playing a wizard sport or create potions that give you great luck for an entire day or one i could give to rob pattinson to make him love me, haha.

2. Ice Cream.

I will seriously hear the ice cream truck and get excited. i don't like cake. i'm not big on cookies or brownies. but i will eat ice cream all day if adam would let me. :)

3. Avatar.

Adam and I just started watching this show last week. I never thought I would actually fall in love wth it. It is really funny and serious at the same time. The humor fits Adam and I just right. If I got to pick which bender I would be, I would be an air bender like Anng. Again, who doesn't want to fly?!

4. Dressing up.

Jonah and I have been playing pretend a lot lately. We will be pirates, dinosaurs, dragons...you name it. We do it outside a lot and chase eachother. Yeah, people stare, they will get over it. :)

5. Coloring.

I get real serious when I color a picture. I make sure it's not outside the lines at all. I'm picky when I choose which picture to color and what crayons to use. And then I get really excited and want to put it on the fridge! If Jonah colors on my page...it actually frustrates me. I hold it back but have to tell myself, "he's only two. he's only two..."

Simplified. I'm not shaking.

2010-05-25T01:36:00.003-04:00

i'm in love with everything i see today.

well, it's bright and new.

i can sway.

where i lay, i can sway.

annuals.<3

radio hatred.

2010-05-23T15:55:00.004-04:00

hey. you know that country song that says "god is great. beer is good. people are crazy."? if i have to hear it played on the juke box at work ONE more time i feel like i'll quit. if i have to read someone else's status that contains these lyrics i feel like i'll delete my fb. if i see another group on fb titled those lyrics i feel like i'll go off on all those people that joined the group. THAT'S how much i hate that song & how much i want to kick people that like it.

oh & that one rap song that incorporated forever young pisses me off. GET YOUR OWN LYRICS!
just like i'm mad at that rapper (i purposefully tried to forget his name, haha) for stealing imogen heap's song hide & seek & putting it into that stupid rap song. everyone loved it & i just wanted to stab pencils into my ears & punch him in the face. her music is amazing & her outlet & ART & he stole it!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=et17ExXMapg
watch that video please:)

this is the end of my rant. jonah's mad because he wants to dance with me RIGHT NOW. haha

happppy 23rd adam!

2010-05-18T22:22:00.016-04:00

tomorrow is the hubby's TWENTY THIRD birthday!

& since i won't have any time to blog tomorrow:

celebrating adam's birthday this year is gonna be a little different than normal. we are broke. we don't even have our own running car to go somewhere. he's working overtime all week & sleeps until around 4:30 everyday. there just isn't the time or money to do something special as always. BUT it doesn't change the fact that he's turning 23 tomorrow:)

he is such an amazing man. he really is that exception to all that "guys are so..." stuff.

adam is so great because unlike most men he is (most of the time :]) a great listener and very sensitive. not in that metro-sexual or gayish way, but in the way that most women complain about their husband's not being.

he has the greatest sense of humor. seriously, he can crack me up even when i'm super pissed at him.

he has matured into this hard working, responsible & loving husband & father.

his relationship with Jonah is adorable. everyday when adam's sleeping (he works 3rd shift) jonah will want to go wake him up and says, "see daddy! see daddy!" when they play it never fails to bring a huge smile to my face.

& what amazes me the most is that this great, sexy:), funny, amazing man has stuck around with me even when things have gotten really, really hard.

i love you so much husband!

happy birthday love!!

birthday, easter & spring time

2010-05-17T23:06:00.012-04:00

honesty.

2010-05-06T22:06:00.004-04:00

i need to let go. i have too much bitter and resentful feelings and i'm just plain tired of it. i get this way when i "know" someone else is in the wrong but they never apologized. i'm stubborn. i need to forgive and forget. it's pretty hard to do that when they never asked for forgiveness but i'm trying.
i've been writing on paper rather than on here. i was "tumbling" for a while but that never took off. i kind of like using paper sometimes instead of the internet for my thoughts. like the old days :)
it seems like everything that could go wrong the last couple of weeks did. i'm not going to dwell on those things now by stating them. but i would like to share that i was feeling crappy, alone, betrayed and frankly scared of what could happen next then i read a blog i had written almost a year a go. it was talking about how all these things happened and they sucked but God will provide. there's always someone out there who has it worse off. and if those things don't make me perk up and have hope, i resort to the following:
my son. just his presence overwhelms me with happiness. the one beautiful, amazing person in this world that loves me unconditionally and is so innocent. it's such a wonderful thing being a mom, a privilege.
scripture. i love reading about how God always fills His promises. He will never leave us. He will never forsake us. He is making a beautiful place with Him to spend eternity. reading about all the times He was faithful, that means those things are true and how can we be down when we think about our maker loving us and caring for us the way He does? & who can be against you when God is for you? it doesn't matter what these people think that i'm indirectly "butting" heads with. GOD loves me. GOD won't betray me. my fear of abandonment keeps diminishing because i'm realizing more and more everyday just how much we are here because and for Him. all this extra stuff is just perks :)
so yeah, i'm still angry. i'm still hurt and probably will be for a while. i've never felt betrayed more than i do now. never more ganged up on. defenseless. i just have to keep my head up and not think about the hurt. it's just going to manifest more bitterness. i have to learn to pray for my enemies. really pray for them. because, honestly, they need it. they are at a place in their life where they really, truly, believe they are doing the right thing. but i know it isn't when it directly conflicts with Jesus' teachings. how could doing things against the Bible be the right thing? i know we all sin. i sin. and i'm not saying i do everything the bible says to do. not do what it says to not do. but i know the difference between right and wrong. and i sorta feel sorry for people who say they are doing God's work but it's the exact opposite of what it says is right. for instance, people are arguing that homosexuality is stated as okay in the Bible, when it clearly says it's against God. they are teaching people that are gay that it's okay. not a sin. even that JESUS himself was gay.
i kinda, sorta went a different way with this post than i meant to. pretty much, love one another. especially, if you know someone needs help, reach out to them. we are all brothers and sister in Christ.

my angry rambling.

2010-05-06T19:04:00.003-04:00

all they have wanted me to do is try.
be better. make an effort. show some progress.
i tried for a long time.
thinking i was doing it the right way.
i would always sink back into darkness.
go my own way.
give up hope.
now i've done my best.
a work in progress.
started to be me again.
they abandoned me.
left me alone with no explanation.
they give advice when they know so little.
about me.
about him.
for one week no questions.
so much progress unnoticed.
i thought we were to forgive and forget.
love everyone.
instead i've seen hate more than ever.
bitterness in place of compassion.
turning heads.
making jokes when about someone hurting.
never reaching out.
so finally my progress, my effort, my changes are noticed.
i get a "thanks".
if you only knew what has happened.
what if've overcame.
conquered.
you wouldn't think of me that way.
i've been defenseless the whole time.
never had the chance to speak.
i was called names i'll never be able to forget.
for some reason that's justified.
never an apology.
where was that learned.
i've learned more about people than i cared to.
lost a lot of friends.
people i looked up to.
but now i know that's poison.
never ceasing to harm me or my family.
everyone else sees it.
i tell two sides now.
even though i used to hide my flaws.
i know now that's unhealthy.
a lie.
poison.
i'd rather be alone.
than live another day like that.
it's out of my life.
you can't talk to me.
you can't hear my side.
you give blinded opinions.
and yet you still think you're right.
all i wanted was my family.
what i committed my life to.
it was stolen from me.
if you would only change.
show some progress.
let go.
lies.

time travelin' and grievin'

2010-02-26T01:10:00.003-05:00

i'm happier with dark hair.

i love pictures of clocks. it's about time i did my own.

these pots were my grandmother's. gosh, i miss her. i plan on getting a tattoo with her intials dob and dod. i don't care what you think of that. haha.

warm.

2009-12-26T17:02:00.000-05:00

one of my all time favorites.

merry christmas from the garvins!

2009-12-26T15:57:00.013-05:00

...today

2009-12-20T15:05:00.003-05:00

i made this for adam. one of our favorite, take us back to years a go, always makes us smile, songs. <3

i don't have much to say today or pictures to post.

buuuttt,

you should buy some avon from me :)

www.youravon.com/ashleygarvin

ummm ettt (drum set in jonah talk)

2009-12-19T21:09:00.003-05:00

this is one of jonah's christmas presents that we let him have early. gramps gave us money to get out own presents this year and we picked out a drum set! are we the craziest parents ever or just the coolest!?

everything rests on you.

2009-12-17T22:25:00.007-05:00

sweetness.

2009-12-16T18:56:00.000-05:00

i just had the best 15 minutes of my life.
pure happiness.

me doing dishes and hearing jonah and adam playing in the other room. then adam tells jonah to run up and hug me, he does and then hits me in the butt and runs away. i chase jonah and “get” him and then suddenly the game turns into get mommy. they both tickle me and we all start chasing and tickling eachother. then jimmy eats world’s “sweetness” comes on and we dance and sing.

this is the life.

smile like you mean it.

2009-12-11T16:48:00.003-05:00

....

go ahead and judge me for embracing that i'm creative. it's just showing me that you aren't.

you Won't know

2009-12-10T21:31:00.003-05:00

achievement unlocked! 2 years! 50 G

2009-12-08T09:57:00.001-05:00

Today is the hubby and i's 2nd anniversary.
First of all I'm not gonna lie, we forgot until just the other day. Who has time or money this time of year?
Secondly, it hasn't been easy. We have issues like the rest of couples do. Pre-marriage counseling told us it would be rough but we never thought much about it. We thought we were different....
Not to say we haven't had our good times! Making this little family was the best desicion I've ever made and i believe he feels the same way too.
I would like to say there are many things that i appreciate and love about our marriage. Too many things to type and not enough time in the day to do so. Here are a few of the things that I love about us.
-we play video games together. like dudes. like best friends. we bond and kick butt.
-we can communicate so well. i hear of other couples having issues with being able to talk about how they feel but we usually don't. we are not perfect with it by any means. but we try really hard ever since we had the training from the pre-marriage counseling.
-we have a huge history together. we dated almost 2 years starting out when i was only 14 and he was 15. we had a break and got back together senior year. we were good friends from the moment we started talking in 8th grade. when i went to start school there they have a little orientation for new students and i met his mom before him as she was part of the staff. i remember him telling me later she talked to him about me, how i was pretty and he might like me. :)
-we have very similar senses of humor. we feed off each others jokes so much and have eachother cracking up. i love that about us because it always seemed like i would never find someone who really understood my humor.
-we have similar taste in music. we have the music that we both like. then like adam likes christian metal, i don't really but i don't mind most of it. then i'm into a lot of stuff he doesn't really like but will tolerate. just another thing that i'm glad we don't have to worry about it.

and most of all, we both just love eachother. so much.

for instance. that two years that we were apart we would see eachother from time to time. sometimes having some periods of time in there where we were hanging out. but mostly we both just felt like we were waiting. i didn't admit this until not too long a go when he said the same thing to me. he was always that guy. i would always get that feeling when i saw him. and when we got back together, we both just kinda knew it was right.
it's kinda hard to talk about that time because of circumstances with my ex. but i'm okay with it now. i loved him too. just not like adam. just as a friend. i was foolish for leading him on for 2 years. for talking about marriage and kids. i was a kid. and i know it was sudden and seemed cold hearted but i couldn't lead him on anymore. adam and i both wanted to be together so badly. i know it doesn't seem possible to just know when your 18...but we did. i'm glad that i've made the life choices i have, as adam, jonah and i wouldn't be here or who we are today.

adam-
i appreciate you so much. i'm glad i get to wake up everyday as mrs. garvin. i'm happy i chose you. you are a beautiful person. i'm lucky to have you babe.

Life even in Death.

2009-11-23T13:59:00.002-05:00

Last night I had this very, very vivid dream I wanted to share.

It was Thanksgiving day and the whole family was at grandma and grandpa's house as usual. All but granny, she had passed away in the dream just like reality.

I was holding Jonah when I looked up and saw this picture of Christ on the cross on her wall. I started looking around the room at each and every person there. I saw my grandma around all of them. Each person, for a spilt second, she was next to, hugging, reaching out to them.

I then looked down at my son, Jonah whom I was holding and I felt this presence of granny behind me. Holding me. Looking down at Jonah and I. I looked up and saw her face for just a second before it disappeared. I had an overwhelming feeling of grief. sadness.

I handed Jonah to my mother and walked back into grandma's bedroom. This had been where I grieved alone while spending the hours after her death at their house in reality. I walked to her bed and her rosary bead were placed on her side of the bed. The same beads that I carried with me when I was growing up. That she and I loved so much. And that I had personally placed in her coffin before they put her in the ground. I picked them up and sat down.

While staring at the beads and sobbing, missing her so much I felt a warm brush on my shoulder. It startled me and I looked up into my grandmother's eyes. Except it looked like she did in the black and white pictures I loved so much. The ones where she was 20 years old and beautiful as can be.

She looked at me with her head slightly tilted and said, "dear. Why are you crying? I'm so happy."
"granny. we miss you so much. i cant-", she stopped me.
"Ashley, I'm in heaven. I have life again in Christ. I have my friends with me. I play bingo and run. I'm free, I worship God, and it's beautiful there. Don't cry for me. We will be together again."

She was gone.

Find this silly. I know it was a message from her. From God. I never believed in any of this stuff until this day.

I love you granny.
Thank you.

...Love...

2009-11-19T23:55:00.002-05:00

Don't take life for granted.

To live is Christ. To die is gain.

2009-11-14T21:31:00.004-05:00

This has by far been the hardest year of my life and the worst thing happened Thursday morning.

My grandmother, Shirley, passed away from a very sudden, unexpected heartattack.

Let me start by telling you just how hard this is on my family and I.

Most grandparents you see at holidays. My grandparents are much, much more than that.

My grandmother (we called her granny), was the sweetest soul I've ever known. She reached out and tried to help whoever she knew, didn't know, it didn't matter to her. She loved people. She gave everything she had to make anyone happy and didn't expect anything in return.

She would call and talk about your life. Never a complaint about hers. She would just listen when you needed to talk and give you the best, moral advice she had. I've never met a person on this earth with such high moral standards.

She made friends with people at the grocery store. Complete strangers. She had love just pouring out of her. You could see in it her. You could see the love of Christ in her and flowing out of her to touch others.

She would always make sure everyone had their food before she would even sit down to eat.

I told her I wanted a crock pot so I could make pot roast. Two days later there was a crock pot and everything to make a roast at my house ready for me when I got home from work.

She never left my sister's side when she was in the hospital with cancer. never.

I told her I loved purple when I was seven. once. Up until the day she died, she remembered that and everything she bought me was purple if she could help it.

She stayed up all night before holidays wrapping, cooking and making sure everything was perfect so that we could have a beautiful, wonderful time. and we always did.

She was such a dancer. She sang karoke at our family reunion last year to baby got back while actually dancing some pretty hip moves.

She took in all the in laws as her own children, grandchildren, and even her friends were family to her.

If there is any indication of how powerful her love was and what a deep impact she had in people's life, this is it.Adam lived with both sets of his grandparents for some time. One of them even babysat him most of his childhood. And in the 6 years he's known my granny he says she was more of a grandmother to him than his own.

This is what my grandma was.
love.
loyalty.
beauty.
selfless.
genuine.
caring.
woman of God.

I could go on forever. She wouldn't want me to. She would want me to remember her but try, try hard to move on. And this is what I'm going to try and do for you granny.

Jonah won't go a day in his life without hearing about you or feeling your love in my heart.

I will never forget you granny. 11/13/1935-11/12/2009
You lived a beautiful life.

my first senior pictures!

2009-11-02T10:08:00.030-05:00

esme <3

2009-10-19T22:55:00.004-04:00

My new baby niece, esme!

dang, i love her.

I got to be there when she was delivered. HUGE blessing.

Congrats Abby and Eli! love you guys : )

Fall is my favorite.

The end.

Where have the last 2 years gone?!?

2009-09-29T14:53:00.016-04:00

Today is Jonah's 2nd birthday and that amazes me. It's gone by so fast and it's so hard to believe how grown up he is. Most people say that they have the cutest, coolest, smartest kid and they believe it even though it's obviously only true with one kid. and that kid is Jonah. Here are some reasons why i love Jonah more than you can imagine and the reasons that make him more cool than even most adults. : )
1/ He watches whatever on TV. I mean whatever. He rarely complains if we watch a show that's not a cartoon, he will sit with us and at least pretend to enjoy it.
2/ He thinks farts are hilarious.
3/ He has slept through the night ever since he was 4 weeks old.
4/ He knows a good amount of brand new and bright eyes and sings and dances to them.
5/ He screams adam's screamo music...
6/ He calls me Ashley.
7/ He calls Jason douche and Toby is known as hobo.
8/ He loves cheese. so much that sometimes he won't stop yelling cheese.
9/ he had surgery at 3months and wore casts on and off for a while so he's tough!
10/ Right now he's wearing undies over his onesie and he doesn't care one bit.
11/ He always throws his trash away.
12/ He loves takng pictures and sometimes he gets some decent ones.
13/ He plays rock band.
14/ He is crazy cute!
15/ He has amazing friends and family and we make him that much cooler. : )
Happy Birthday Jonah!!!

long time, no blog.

2009-07-26T12:10:00.007-04:00

wow. its been over a month.

The two daddy's in my life.

2009-06-21T22:04:00.003-04:00

Happy Father's day Adam!!!
I honestly never thought before I had jonah that he would mature so fast into this amazing father that he is today. He jumped right into being an amazing dad. He loves to play and teach jonah new things. with how protective and close I am to jonah, you know adam must be amazing for me to work 9 hours and leave jonah in his care! I know that adam will be a great father in all the stages of jonah's life. I see that spark in his eye whenever he talks about or talks to him. Jonah adores his daddy! And so do I!
love you babe!

To my daddy:
I know that we haven't always been on good terms and we have had a lot of rough times but over the past few years I feel like all the things are getting smoothed out. I don't want years later when it's too late to look back and think how you only lived a street away from me but I never knew you. I think that one of God's purposes with having me have Jonah was to bring us together. Not a day goes by that I don't think about how I would love to have you in our life more. I feel like we have already missed out on so much life together already that we shouldn't waste a second. I'm sorry for all the things I did when I was younger. I'm sorry for pushing everyone away and rebelling. I'm sorry for yelling and staying away from home for days. That's all over now and I forgive you for everything as well. Just know dad that I love you and I hope someday to be as close as possible to you.

June passes in June

2009-06-19T14:13:00.013-04:00

sorry it's been so long...: (
started working again at northridge lanes and that's been keeping busy enough for now that my spare time is going to joner, adam, friends and housework. i have a lot of stuff to post so it might take a few different posts to catch up!
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The Hubby's grandma June passed away on Tuesday this week. She was a very sweet lady. I wish we would have spent more time with her before she passed so that I could have known her better. I will say that I am glad that she did not suffer for a really long time. The last year she has been going but it's been up and down. I'm just glad that she passed away with a very loving family helping take care of her and a great place to live at forest glen. Rest in Peace June. Love you.

BFFs, parks, and juice boxes

2009-06-03T16:07:00.009-04:00

cussin', video game playin', makeup wearin' babies

2009-05-27T21:33:00.008-04:00

I'm not sure how my son knows the things he does but he's super smart! I've been shocked everyday by the things this kid points to when i ask, the way he does what i tell him, and frankly just because he's the cutest kid ever! We took him to the driving range, he knew exactly what to do. He knew what ducks were at young's even though they look nothing like the ducks he has as stuffed animals (which he has TONS of. he loves ducks and everywhere we go, he will find one, point and say ducky, ducky!) the other day he tried to put mascara on his eyes and lip gloss on his mouth. he knows how to operate our VCR and TV. He knows how to use our Xbox and how to move on video games. I mean this kid is watching EVERYTHING! time to not leave my bras and panties out I guess and not use even the slightest foul language since the other day it sounded like a**hole came out! I'm going to blame that one on the hubby!

God's time = perfection

2009-05-20T13:55:00.013-04:00

so you all are aware, I have started a new blog (agarvinphotography.blogspot.com) for my photography and all that good stuff. Since now I have a few prospects about selling and getting this thing started I figured it would be a good idea to have a more professional blog site. I will still be posting some pictures on here but you should also check out my other blog for pictures and such!
Since Adam's struggles with finding work and our money draining quickly God has really provided for us. Last year there was a mistake with our taxes and it has taken us forever to get the rest of our refund for 2007 (the lady took like 9 months to do it). This has been frustrating but now that we will be receiving that in about 2 weeks, it will be just in time! God's time is wonderful and perfect. Be patient and remember He WILL take care of you. : )

Here are some pictures, have a wonderful day.

Happy Birthday Cutie!

2009-05-19T11:15:00.003-04:00

Today is the Hubby's 22nd Birthday! We spent yesterday at the zoo (we go every year for his birthday since our first date was the zoo on his birthday, plus we just love it!) this year we got to take Jonah who loved it more than we expected and overall we just had a good day. Tonight it's olive garden for us and a nice evening relaxing.

About 2 months a go I wrote him 100 things that I loved about him as a husband, dad, and just as a person. Now I'm going to share some of those with my readers so that you know just how wonderful of a person I get the pleasure of being married to!
8. He has the coolest T shirts!
13. how much he loves jonah
17. How mch he knows about animals
22. How hard he tries to make us work
24 how good he is at guitar hero
27. how he always kisses me goodnight. always.
29. he is an amazing singer
40. how we make fun of billy mays together
48. how he likes beer but won't drink a lot/get drunk
55. he loves to see me smile and tries to see it all the time
62 how he will not wear green on st. patricks day
68. how much he accepts himself just the way he is
77. him playing guitar and singing makes me melt
88. very generous
99. his love for food
100. You are my other half. No one could complete me the way you do!
Love you babe!

photoshoot with the neice

2009-05-17T09:59:00.012-04:00

Ashley Garvin, Photographer

2009-05-15T23:54:00.005-04:00

I'm going back to school! I'm starting online classes June 22nd for my gen eds then moving on to hopefully get my photography cert. I really feel like a career as a photographer would allow me to be a mom and a wife first and that's what I really want. Photography has always been a passion of mine so after a lot of praying I'm going to do it! Now if only some rich stranger would provide me the cash to buy me the camera I need to really get going!

your smile...it's the most genuine thing

2009-05-15T18:41:00.007-04:00

this is turning into a photography kind of blog : )

2009-05-14T21:54:00.003-04:00

Happy {late} mother's day!

2009-05-11T23:13:00.006-04:00

<33333333

Happy [you have changed at least 1,000 dirty diapers, questioned what that sticky stuff is in your hair too many times to remember, forgot to take a shower before, ran out of the house in your pjs and never once thought of what someone else thought, picked boogers and wiped them not even thinking, ran up and down the sidewalk after your kid with no bra, no makeup on, thought , "oh, that's what my mom meant", wondered whether or not you should seek help for singing the wiggle's songs and dancing while doing the dishes, but most importantly, seeing first smile and will never forget it, can't wait to see them again when you actually do get a sitter, just sit and watch them play and imagine what's going through their sinkin heads, get more excited than anything when you save up that extra money and buy them something really neat, being able to pick them up after falls and kiss their tears away, taking 1,836,476 pictures within the first year and to you everyone is different, smelling your baby after bathtime, being so proud of the firsts (kicking a ball, talking, walking), that first little bit in the morning when they are so happy to see you, and my favorite of all..knowing that the amount that i love my son (which is a crazy huge amount!), God loves me 8923426539485 times that!] Day!!

Synder Park Can Be Pretty Too

2009-05-08T19:32:00.004-04:00

bunny ears, quicksand and baby messes

2009-05-02T08:46:00.009-04:00

raisins, futons, and poopy fingers

2009-04-23T17:21:00.003-04:00

my son's gone crazy! the past several weeks he has been buttering me up and now it's all crashing down in my face. i've always been the mom who doesn't spoil her son and doesn't let him eat a cookie right after time out, but for 3 weeks before yesterday, that was me. before then jonah wasn't doing the worst things i had ever seen kids do, just a little rebellious and cute. (he liked to give us kisses when we were mad! how can you stay mad?) well this week, especially the last 2 days, he's driving me nuts. i almost cried because i had to change 2 poopy diapers at the exact same time yesterday, one of those had poo on their fingers and another that wasn't poopy had it on him...i teach them to share mmk. while i was cleaning up one's hands jonah was dumping my purse everywhere and made a huge mess. when i was cleaning that up, two of them helped each other dump my basket with my important papers and notebooks that i recently had so perfectly organized. so i sit my purse down and hurry to get the post it notes out of their mouths and jonah dumps my purse again. jonah got time out upstairs while the other two fought over who got to stand in front of the door. i break that up still not done with the mess, jonah's screaming upstairs, (only for about 2 mins, after that he started playing with the mat in the pack and play. awesome time out.) kitty is hyper and runs across our mantle thing, knocks down a tea light candle i had to sit there after prying it from jonah's chubby little hands earlier that day, and another 2 year old picks it up and takes a bite out of it. after this it's a blur. adam got home and he's always a help. i felt like i wasn't cut out for sitting or being a mom. jonah is 1 and a half now and i know that's close to the terrible twos but i got too laid back with him. i should have never fed him that raisin while he was in time out. i shouldn't have let him eat his lunch on the kitchen table that day or stand on the printer and get crumbs down in it. well i guess i didn't let him do that one. i got depressed today because we moved our recliner to the basement due to the fact that he cannot get jonah to stop eating the fuzz out of the hole in it. so we brought up this very nice futon that a family member gave us which is good because i have been wanting to use it but it doesn't match my room at all and that's one thing i can say i do ok, decorate or at least make it look decent with very little money. but who can do that when my candle holder turned into a raisin holder and my lamp just something fun to shake around? now my room looks awkward but at least its more convenient with kids and i guess that's ok. : ) i really do like kids. i'm just now realizing why my mom always said you can have all that once your kids are grown and moved out. i'm ranting when i really need to do some dishes. kbye.

adam ant

2009-04-18T22:39:00.001-04:00

I love my husband!!!!!&()^%$!

love you miss hannah

2009-04-14T14:20:00.003-04:00

R.I.P Hannah Young

such a tragedy. and since this is the second tragedythat hit our small community in 6 weeks i started really questioning a lot. i read 90 minutes in heaven last night and it helped me a lot. i was having a really hard time coping with the death of another young person not for me but i was deeply mourning for her parents loss. 90 mins in heaven gave me so much hope in this dark time about what hannah is enjoying and what is to come for me. at the end of the book, don talks about this little old women who asks him if her deceased husband is happy and if he misses her. he tells her he surely is happy and he does not miss her. as bad as that may sound, our loved ones who are now with their creator do not miss us left on the earth. that would mean there is hurt and pain. in heaven God wipes all that away. Hannah is not grieving leaving us behind, she's rejoicing in the Lord. and as hard as this tragic loss of a beautiful life is, remember that before Hannah knows it she will be meeting each of you believers and close friends at the gates of heaven, no "time" would have passed by for her since there is no time in heaven. all she is doing is worshipping and praising the Lord and she feels more joy than we can ever even express on earth.

your plan is flawless Lord no matter how flawed it seems on earth.

squeezies, new phones and horrible old drivers

2009-04-10T21:58:00.004-04:00

Abby's addiction posts made me think of my new found addiction...squeezies. those little kool aid filled plastic containers are so delicious and wonderful and just a dollar for six! they have so many colors and now they have "water" ones! amazing!
(this is serious people, they have a lot of sugar and are way too convenient to just grab and drink. help!)

i had road rage today. i wasn't even driving. this makes my husband pretty angry at me as well. i can't help it, people that live in beavercreek just drive too dang crazy!

at&t sucked me and the hubby into buying new phones. both our erricsons broke (his after about 2 months and mine after about 7 but still) and we only had one tiny pay as you go phone. adam got the shiny LG vu and i go the samsung propel. we get rebates so i justified it. plus i just had to get one with a full key pad. seriously. it makes texting a million times a day so much easier. we got insurance this time though so maybe they will last us longer...

the letters of wednesday

2009-04-06T10:39:00.005-04:00

i recently checked out this book called "the wednesday letters" at the library. it's christian fiction about a couple who was married for like 40 years and every wednesday the husband would write the wife a letter. they kept all the letters and the book is about how the children go through them and it tells a story about their journey of marriage for so long.
not sure if this is a real known book or concept but i had never heard of it. even though i ended up not interested in reading the book after a few chapters (plus i can't really be too distracted when i have to babysit so many kids. these kids are just waiting for a chance to do something crazy. you should see them when i just go to the bathroom!) i loved the idea of a couple doing this. i told my husband about the book and he thought it would be a cool idea for us to try. so now on wednesdays we are both taking a little time out of our day to write down a few thoughts, ideas and feelings in a notebook and we will keep them hopefully forever. he writes mine in a transformers notebook. i think that's pretty sweet.

police calls, screaming kids and deliverance

2009-04-01T23:14:00.004-04:00

things are hard.
the hubby and i are having quite a few issues.
i've been feeling sick.
i have a flat tire.
we are poor.
jonah was yelling at me all day.
i got the cops called on me for putting a note in someone's car.
my doctor's office is no longer accepting my insurance.

God always gets me through. there is a light at the end of the very long, dark, scary tunnel. when i stop to see the great things that God does for me and my family i feel like poo for complaining for a second.
i have a wonderful husband who loves me very much and tolerates me when i'm hormonal.
i'm healthy enough. God has gotten me safely through 4 surgeries and giving birth to a baby.
yes i have a flat tire but at least i have a car. i car that runs. and i don't have to sleep in it.
i have several babysitting jobs for really great families. my husband started a new job today.
i have a beautiful healthy son who i love very much and is such a blessing even when he yells.
yeah the cops called me about it but they very much disagreed with her calling them. and i finally got a huge burden out of my life.
i have insurance. there are other doctors.

i am so very lucky. i love my life. i don't really have many friends but the ones i do have i know care about me very much. my mom supports me so much even when i disappoint her with my piercings and tattoos. i am so lucky to have such a generous, caring mother.
God takes care of me. my family. He can take care of YOU too. : )

Flame, Fishy, and Homer

2009-03-31T11:42:00.003-04:00

Here are the next batch of bad baby names. these are still girl names.

Fancy--it was the name of a hooker in a reba song.
Flirt--"have you met my wife, Flirt?"
Flame
Fluffy--defintely doesn't make me think of a dog or anything.
Fog
Fudge--this name makes me think of the guy on candy land.
Fishy--that is def. a suitable name for some women.
Gay--you should name your kid lesbian and make the choice for them.
Grid--a giant woman
Heart--i would not want to be named after that band

Hen
Homer
Hop
Jael--resembling a moutain goat
Jaen--resembling an ostrich (i liked ^ and this name but the meanings? seriously?)
Lady--I already hate it when people in the grocery store or kids will say "hey Lady!" I'm so glad my parents didn't do this to me.

v smile, baby models and kittens

2009-03-30T14:00:00.009-04:00

jonah likes the v smile box better than the game itself.
i played the v smile. there are some really creepy and almost sexual suggestive things on it. i guess it wouldn't be for a one and a half year old.

when we tell jonah no now he lays down and tries to be cute.
Baby model? I think so.

He can also climb on the table now and when we tell him to get down he just gives us kisses. This makes it very hard to be stern.

Our cat got out last night and we didn't know until this morning. She must have gotten out while our friend was leaving later last night. She probably is pregnant. she's in heat. awesome.

beathag, cricket, and carni

2009-03-27T10:10:00.003-04:00

I am not pregnant.
But i will be someday.
Since I found out Ava was one of the most popular girl names now I must change.
Adam got out the baby name book yesterday and I came across the name moose. Since then I have been curious as to what other crazy names there might be. These are the crazy girl names I have found so far.
Baby--this would be hassel free i guess
Bar--it means a lawyer. no it doesn't.
Beathag--this is not attractive
Bera--resembling a bear
Berthhog--wealthy women...?
Butch--really?
Caca--I would rather not write what this means in spanish
Catcus--
Carni--this is very appealing! i love carnis!
Celery--it means...celery!
Chick--
Christmas--
Cotton--
Cricket--
Dice--
Dike--it said it means goddess of justice. that's not what I heard.

Sorry If i offended anyone with making fun of these names. you should change yours if it is one of these. i'm just saying.

walks, potties, and scooter rides.

2009-03-26T13:07:00.008-04:00

this is what Jonah thinks about going in the potty chair.

He is going to be 18 months in three days so I'm starting this journey now. we'll see how this goes. I mean he is already riding grandpa's scooter...he should poopy in the potty!

This is our trip to the reservoir with my neice and nephew

Lastly, this is what it looks like when jonah has time out. it's such a fun time for a baby!

thanks famous footwear

2009-03-25T19:09:00.005-04:00

I do not like that my son has clubbed foot, but it is an excuse for me to buy him very cute high top converses. (obviously they are not this size : )

I also like deals like buy one get one half off when my son also needed comfy nike sandals.

I just love how I get more excited when my son gets new stuff than when I do. <3

Random thoughts, picture, etc.

2009-03-19T21:19:00.010-04:00

this is what you get when you let a 4 year old take pictures.

And this is how your house looks with having three crazy kids all day, a kid/husband, and a migrane. awesome.

I'm currently babysitting anywhere from 2-6 kids 5 days a week plus i have my own. After 2 weeks and no job for the husband I decided to try and start working evenings and sundays leaving me with no days off if i get the kind of hours i want. this is not complaining. God has blessed me with the kids i have, the parents i work for, and the income i am receiving. plus since the hubby has been home he is a huge help. i dont need to worry about simply going to the bathroom, for now anyways. calling my old boss this evening and telling him i would like to come back was a little hard considering how i left. but hey at least i already know how to do the job and well, i already have had more time in there than one person, and i know every regular customer. sure not putting jonah to bed everyday will be a bummer and the hubby will have to make due without my dinners some nights but it will feel good to be making all the money! since i went back to work 5 weeks after having jonah and left 3 months later i know i can do it now. i left before because they made me close 3-4 nights a week so that meant getting off work around 10 when jonah was awake still adam had to be up for work at 3! this did not make him happy. but right now i'm hoping that they will need me a good amount. i tried to convince a friend that works there to call off a lot and she wasn't having it! oh well.

Random thoughts:

God has been doing really cool stuff for us lately. Adam and I read out of 3 devotions every night before bed and one night (in this joyce meyer devotion) it said to try and pray to God about even the little stuff. it sounds so simple but if you really think about it, God doesn't want you to be upset, sad, frustrated about things, even the little things. so ever since then i have tried to at least talk to Him about my feelings and ask Him to help out. so really cool things have been happening and I love it. : )

Since I became a Christian every once in a while when I am really worshipping and my eyes are closed, I get this sensation like I'm a little kid and God is holding me by my hands spinning me around. I'm not crazy! Promise! When I was little my grandpa used to always do that with me
and I always say God just knows how much I always loved that!

Random pictures : )

leggos and sidewalk chalk

2009-03-18T16:38:00.006-04:00

I've been busy. really busy and not having too much to say other than crazy stories about all my babysitting. I'm currently working 5 days a week which is great for us and even better because 4 are at our house. here are some pics since I just had my babysitting kid leave and I want to take a nap. : )
this was my pirate boat castle i made. the whole time i was building, all the kids were just staring, waiting to destroy it. then they did.

a girl i babysit wrote what shew thought was her brother's name (Kennen) but she said it is spelled D 1 E which she wrote directly in front of my neighbors front door.

You anoint my head with oil. my cup overflows

2009-03-10T00:29:00.005-04:00

Since Peter's death everything has seemed different. I've had weird dreams, distanced myself a little from family and some friends, and just broke out crying at random times. Questions keep coming up and instead of getting better, I've gotten worse. For some reason I haven't been able to let go. I've dealt with many deaths in my lifetime and none have affected me the way this has. I have also never dealt with a suicide.
Peter and I were pretty close for a while but it's been some time. The last time I saw Peter we had a great time. It was about 5 months a go. He spent the day with Adam and I. He met Jonah for the first time and this was when I decided I had high hopes for him as a father. He rocked Jonah telling him silly stories, asked questions about him, the birth, our life. Peter was an amazing person. He lived a beautiful life and touched so many people's hearts. In twenty years he accomplished so much and made a difference in so many lives. I hope to be at least half of the person that he was.
Honestly, I have had thoughts of bitterness here and there. Why would he put all these people through so much pain? How come he couldn't just express his sufferings? Then I realized that Peter is even after all this in a better place than anyone living on this earth. I know that he is with his maker. I know that God can kiss away his tears and wipe away all the pain and he doesn't even know the meaning of pain anymore. We can't even fathom the joy that he is experiencing. We can't for a second picture how amazing, how beautiful his dwelling place is. He will never hurt again. This should put me at peace for good about this, but it hasn't.
I've prayed and prayed that God will take this from me. I don't want to forget Pete, I just want closure. Do I feel like I need more answers? Sometimes. But when I have discovered some truth, I have prayed to forget. I haven't. I can't stop thinking about what happened before he passed. The sorrow he felt. The discouragement. The fact that Satan was right there in that room with him, telling him to do it. I am angry sometimes. Then I'm sad. Regretful. Awestruck. Why was it his time? He was the last person on the planet I would have ever expected this from. Peter, why?
I know that God is in control and he will take this away in his time. Maybe I'm supposed to feel this for now. Maybe I'm supposed to do something with this. Whatever it is, I'm letting God lead the way.

Peter,
I'm so grateful I knew you. You touched so many people in your short, beautiful life. No one who has ever met you even for a minute will forget you. Thank you for your warm smile, your encouragement, the way you would never judge and stick up for anyone, your sense of humor. I will never forget some of the jokes you told me and the pictures you drew. Your music was wonderful. You had the most artistic, unique way of life and I looked up to you. Thank you for calling me ashley manatee and for always writing me stupid notes in spanish class. I know that adam and i wouldn't be who we are now if it weren't for you and your kind spirit. I will see you again Pete. I know it. And I will bring you a single beer on your 21st bday...promise. goodbye for now friend. i love you.

03.03.09 You will be missed

bad things come in 3's.

2009-03-03T21:13:00.002-05:00

that's what my mom always told me. as i grew up, this made me terrified when one bad thing happened because i was scared about what other things would go wrong. praise God that He is in control and His will is done not this old wives tale. but i will say that in the last two days, 3 bad things happened.
1. i had my 4 wisdom teeth pulled yesterday morning. in the end it will be a good thing but for now...it sucks. yesterday i was much better than today which is the opposite of what they told me (that the 1st and 3rd day are the worst) i woke up this morning, after barely sleeping because after 3 am the pain was terrible and i kept bleeding on my pillow, to find out that my right cheek looks just like i have a baseball in it and my left is a little swollen. i would rather have them about the same so i look like i had something done. honestly i think i look like i was born deformed this way! but it will help me out so much when i'm all healed.
2. adam lost his job yesterday. it's a reallllly long story but either way it sucks. i know that God prepared us for this because our tax money came just 4 days before and i have been very adament on not spending it. i know something will come up that's better for him and for us but it's a little scary knowing how hard it currently is to get a job.
3. a good friend of adam's and mine commited suicide this morning. not a lot of details at this moment but i do know that everyone currently close to him is really confused on why. last time we saw him was a couple months back when he visited and he seemed happy like normal. i feel horrible for the family and close friends. i know that adam is taking it pretty hard since he never has really lost anyone close to him before and he feels like since they didn't talk much anymore he could have tried harder to be in his life and help him. i know how it feels when something bad happens and how it's easy to feel guilty. i just know that for some reason it happened and no one should feel gulit because of it. please pray for this family and close friends of theirs.

The Compassionate Christ

2009-02-28T11:09:00.002-05:00

This is from my devotional this morning...

"When he arrived, he saw a great crowd waiting. he felt sorry for them...so he began to teach them many things." Mark 6:34

When Jesus lands on the shore of Bethsaida, he keaves the sea of Galilee and steps into a sea of humanity. Keep in mind, he has crossed the sea to get away from the crowds. He needs time to grieve. He longs to relax with with his followers. He needs anything but another crowd of thousands to teach and heal.
but His love for people overcomes His need for rest....
Many of those He healed would never say thank you but he Healed them anyway. Most would be more concerned about being healthy than being holy, but He healed them anyway. Some of those who asked for bread today would cry for His blood a few months later, but He healed them anyway....He has compassion on them.

from in the eye of the storm;
grace for the moment

isn't it awesome how the Lord hand picks what we will be reading and makes it special for us?? Today I was really upset. All morning I have been debating about writing a very truthful but maybe a little too honest letter to a "friend" about some things that occured yesterday and past experiences with them. I just wanted to lay it all out, bring up things that would never have been brought up otherwise and in a very not nice way. I felt like I was tired of being the bad person and I wanted them to know what I think they are doing wrong in their walk, how they have wronged me, and what they should apologize for. Then God is like, "woah there Ashley. let the one without sin cast the first stone. and either way I want you to show compassion towards her even if that's means not writing the letter, cutting her out of your life since she has hurt you but maybe smile if you two cross paths and pray that she at least understands eventually". dang it. I don't want to be mean and hateful but I want to be right Lord. But that is me being stubborn and I am going to follow you in this and do as you would do. at least try.

This is a new day.

2009-02-22T10:12:00.000-05:00

this is how I feel.
Lord, Heal me.

God is in your corner

2009-02-21T13:23:00.003-05:00

I rebelled a lot when I was younger. I yelled a lot, went against my parent's rule and flat out disobeyed them. I remember feeling like I don't need rules, I don't need my parents and I don't need anyone telling me what I should or shouldn't do. I remember just throwing all cares out the window. Knowingly the entire time of God's love for me and the way He will never leave or abandon me, I still rebelled. My flesh came first then and I was selfish. I had a wake up call when I found myself broken down, scarred, and lost. God spoke to me and pretty much said "You are my daughter and I will always love you. I forgive your sins but you need to pick yourself up and follow my lead." God will always love me? God can forgive and really forget the things that I have done? Looking back on my journey to become a Christian I feel foolish and stubborn. I know better than to live my life the way I have been. I haven't been committing serious sins but I have fallen away from my walk with Him. I let the world get me down and I need to again die to my flesh and work for Him.
Our God is not fair-weathered and He will never walk away from you for one second even when you walk away from Him. Simple as this sounds reading this-waking up and realizing it, it means so much.

"The Lord himself will go before you. He will be with you; He will not leave or forget you."
Deuteronomy 31:8

I'll follow you into the dark

2009-02-20T20:54:00.004-05:00

Heres a glimpse of what has happened recently
+Abby is having another baby! She makes pretty kids and I can't wait to hold her. (I really believe it's a girl and I hope so!)
-It made me want another one but also made me realize we are poor and it's just not time yet.
-we are poor
+I got a new babysitting job! Just a call you when I need you thing but the reason it's so good is that the kid is really cute, well behaved (so far) and his name is Jonah! That makes the kid and the mom real cool in my book!
+I babysat an asian and the mom liked me.
-He didn't know how to do a sudoku.
+We got our taxes done!
-I can't wait to get them back! I mean really cause I gots bills to pay lol
+Rob showed us a really cool internet radio (pandora.com). I may be really late but I'm still excited!
-My sister and I got into another argument. Well mosr like a misunderstanding then a I'm not going to talk to you anymore. God will work all things out.
-I have to work a total of 33 hours this week (I have already done 22) for the family with the 5 boys. ugghh
+God is really working in me and my husband. Things at least for now are looking a little better. The weekends are really really hard on us. That's when Satan likes to get us down the most. Prayers and His word will get me through this weekend (and some good friends).

::EDIT::

Adam and I were taking pics and I wanted to share a few...
Adam may have tried to take a pic of her butt and this is what it turned out to look like : )

Adam's breath is stinky

Broken

2009-02-18T11:14:00.003-05:00

Lord, I need a refresher. Things are hard and I feel like giving up. I'm discouraged, tired, and overall just sad. I know your this isn't the way that I should be feeling and the way I should be treated. I am your daughter. Your Princess. I want to be a better mother to my son. I want to be a better wife. I want to be so close to you that I can clearly hear your voice and see which direction you are pointing me in without all this stuff in the way. Take all this anxiety, stress, bitterness, self hate, and apathy away. Fill me with your love, compassion, forgivingness, and strength. Show me the right path Lord. I know I can handle this with your help.
amen.

blah i'm bored

2009-02-13T14:37:00.003-05:00

Name 3 of each:
-Pet Peeves: Finger licking, procrastination, whiny children
-Close Friends: Amber, Kristy, Abby, and the hubby
-Favorite Movies: eternal sunshine of the spotless mind, Lord of the rings, closer? I can't think of a good third- I love too many
-Foods You Love: pizza, broccoli, girlled chicken
-Favorite Books: The Bible (ephesians) lovely bones, almost moon,
-TV Shows You Like: The Office, Scrubs, Steven Colbert Report
-Celebrities You Like: Jim Carrey, Katherine Hiegel, Kate Winslet
-Favorite Items of Clothing: jeans, t shirts, hoodies, and that one new shirt from old navy!

Tag adam, abby, and amber (you will make a blog)

High winds really suck

2009-02-11T22:37:00.002-05:00

I really hate Ohio weather. I would love to be in Hawaii right now.

True Confessions (not the taxi cab kind)

2009-02-10T21:22:00.003-05:00

Abby tagged me

1. I think I may be addicted to coke. and I mean coca cola.

2. I secretly still have my old xanga site up even though everyone deleted theirs years a go except a few girls who still blog. xanga.com/pingypenguinhop

3. I always try and find the cheapest price on things like clothing, shoes and makeup. I mean not just sometimes, I always have been this way and I always get more for my money! Most girls I was friend's with were the exact opposite. I have never bought an item and bragged because it was $100 more than the one you bought. That's crazy.

4. I always want to know what's going on. I don't like gossiping but my weakness is giving in and listening to it (celebraity gossip, family stuff, I just like knowing juicy stuff!)

5. I will spend an extra $1.50 or so on a box of tissues so it will match what room it's going in. I can be a tool

6. I have slight OCD. I actually think most people have it at least a little but mine is with cleaning. I can ignore dishes or laundry but I will have made sure there is not a crumb on the floor or not even a tiny bit of dust anywhere. It changes daily what I become obsessed with cleaning.

7. I love when my baby will sit with me for just like 5 mins and watch a show before his attention is caught by something else shiny.

8. I really like the Lord of the Rings movies

9. Sometimes I take a piece of candy or two from the grocery and I don't put a quarter in the box

10. I thought that ham was a bird like animal for years. ya I know. I was a sheltered child.

11. On days that the Hubby is off I could sleep all day cause he is here to cuddle with me : )

I did more cause I thought of extras

I tag adam!

My hubby got sucked in!

2009-02-10T14:17:00.005-05:00

My husband's new blog:
http://frijolesfresco.blogspot.com/
Who knows how long that will last : )

The past two days have been pretty relaxing. Adam is off work until Friday which is great for us to spend some time together but not good for our money situation. Bittersweet.
We got digital cable today which we haven't had more than 13 stations since I have moved out of my parents. I never saw a need in it and I still don't but it will be nice to hear different cartoon songs rather than the same ones over and over. I just hate waking up with them in my head in the morning. After he hooked it up and I was checking out the stations that we have I realized how many shows I have been missing! Adam was on the computer and I spent naptime saying "ohh I forgot about that show!" or "I can't beileve I haven't seen this in like 2 years!". But then I couldn't find one thing to watch. ugh.
I have this babysitting job right and she asked to babysit on Friday for her. So usually I have the 2 year old from about 9 to 2 and the 6 year old from 9-11:15 or so. Well this Friday her two kids are off school so she wants me to watch all 3 from 9-3. This is how the money part of the conversation went. "so do you want me to give you a little bit more money since you will have an extra kid or is $25 still ok?" What the crap lady. Don't try and play me cause I'm young. That's all I have to say.
And here are a couple of pictures because adam and I have had enough free time in the last two days to take random pictures : )

Tables vs. Who Ha's

2009-02-07T14:53:00.003-05:00

YesterdayI was on yahoo and I typed something in and happened to see that the search suggestion was something like "news post on man having sex with table". My curiosity got the best of me and I clicked on it. Apparently this man (who lived in Ohio, big surprise!) got 6 months in jail for having sex with a outdoor table. I'm not kidding so here is the actual post.

BELLEVUE, OH -- Police say a man was arrested after admitting to, and being caught on DVD having sex with his picnic table repeatedly.
Investigators say they received a tip that Art Price Jr., 40, of 146 Brinker St. in Bellevue was having sex with a picnic table while outside on the deck. The incidents occurred between January and March 2008.
Police say on March 13, the tipster dropped off three DVDs which showed Price in the act. On four occasions, Price is seen naked and masturbating in the rear room near the open doorway; he then comes out to the deck. He tilts the metal round picnic table on its side and lays up against it and has sexual intercourse with the table. Afterwards he cleans the table and the deck.
Police say the the incidents occurred close to Ridge Elementary School.
On March 20 Huron County prosecutors met with investigating officers and were shown the DVDs. Later that day, Price was brought in for questioning.
Police say that during questioning, Price admitted he had sex with the picnic table. He also confirmed the incidents caught on the DVD and admitted to having sex with the table inside his home.
On June 18, 2008, Price pleaded 'no contest' to disseminating harmful material to juveniles and public indecency. According the the Huron County Department of Corrections, he was sentenced to six months in jail.

And I found this video. Don't worry it's just a news story on it, not him in the act!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MbY0j02cNqY

Questions:
1. Was his wife not giving him any? I mean I know some women really do withhold it but how long does it take until the man feels the need to do it with a table?

2. Inside the house as well? Ok so I understand that doing it in different places can be exciting but is that the same with a table?

3. Why does this man have to live in Ohio? That's just giving us a worse reputation.

4. Didn't his wife or maybe children notice something strange? I think I would notice if the Hubby went out back naked sometimes and came back in looking happier. I think that I would notice that I wasn't satisfying him the same way anymore and start asking questions. Can a man who likes doing a table like a vjay jay?

5. This one came from my sis in law-
What if he got the table preggo and had in tables??? : )

Priceless

Praise Jesus!!

2009-02-05T21:07:00.001-05:00

I recently had a ct scan done to make sure that I did not have anything going on with my brain that could be causing my migranes. I got the results back today (after waiting 2 weeks-ugh) and they were all clear! This is really a huge blessing right now because it seems like so many things around me are going wrong, especially health wise. My sister is having all sorts of problems and I feel so terrible bad for her. My uncle is dying from cancer and my grandmother passed away just a few months a go. I'm not trying to sound depressing, I'm actually feeling very uplifted right now. I take things for granted way too often! Just a simple thing like finding out I don't have a tumor or something when I never really thought that I would makes me appreciate so much that I am alive and healthy! Don't get me wrong- I look forward to the day when I meet my Lord but I don't want that to come yet! I'm also looking forward to having more babies, grandkids, and a 50th anniversary with my hubby!
Anyway, life is good! Don't take a single day or anyone in it for granted! And here is my fat little man to make you smile :)

7 things

2009-02-03T23:00:00.000-05:00

1. My sister-in-law abby is one of my very best friends ; )
2. My knee caps bend backwards when I'm standing
3. I graduated with over 300 kids I did not know (homeschooling)
4. I have two body piercings and 4 tattoos but I am a Chrsitian and pretty conservative
5. I am pretty easy going but I hate it when people lick their fingers around me
6. I cooked at a bowling alley for 4+ years but I am not white trash!
7. My husband and I dated for almost 2 years in high school, broke up for 2 and have been together again for 3!

I'm not tagging anyone on a count of not knowing anyone except Abby on here and she tagged me! : )

Yay for Blogging!

2009-02-03T14:52:00.001-05:00

So I decided to jump back into the world of blogging due to an increase in downtime. I used to blog for years and recently I went back and read most of it. It caused several emotions- sadness because of my long lost freedom, half the amount of bills to pay, and lots of good friends I've lost contact with for some reason or another. Joy- I have grown up and changed for the better so much since then, I saw what my life was like pre husband and beautiful baby and it made me appreciate them so much, and it made me excited to see what God has in store for me next! But it also made me want to blog again...so here I am.
My life is actually pretty boring. I am a stay at home mom of a 16 month old. Things that do make my life a little interesting-
1. my son is hilarious
2. my husband is hilarious
3. my cat is evil and hilarious
4. my parents are completely awesome and crazy
5. I babysit 5 boys almost every saturday for 10 hours (plus I have my own son!) I usually have some pretty good stories
6. my husband's friends are like my sons/friends. it's weird but they are great and also make for a good story time.
7. I try to live life to the fullest and I really mean that. Most people just say it but I have done some pretty crazy and fun stuff just for the experience. I have calmed down a little bit though : )
So this is all for my first post cause I have a kid I'm watching and he keeps trying to eat one of my candles. : )