police calls, screaming kids and deliverance

things are hard.
the hubby and i are having quite a few issues.
i've been feeling sick.
i have a flat tire.
we are poor.
jonah was yelling at me all day.
i got the cops called on me for putting a note in someone's car.
my doctor's office is no longer accepting my insurance.

God always gets me through. there is a light at the end of the very long, dark, scary tunnel. when i stop to see the great things that God does for me and my family i feel like poo for complaining for a second.
i have a wonderful husband who loves me very much and tolerates me when i'm hormonal.
i'm healthy enough. God has gotten me safely through 4 surgeries and giving birth to a baby.
yes i have a flat tire but at least i have a car. i car that runs. and i don't have to sleep in it.
i have several babysitting jobs for really great families. my husband started a new job today.
i have a beautiful healthy son who i love very much and is such a blessing even when he yells.
yeah the cops called me about it but they very much disagreed with her calling them. and i finally got a huge burden out of my life.
i have insurance. there are other doctors.

i am so very lucky. i love my life. i don't really have many friends but the ones i do have i know care about me very much. my mom supports me so much even when i disappoint her with my piercings and tattoos. i am so lucky to have such a generous, caring mother.
God takes care of me. my family. He can take care of YOU too. : )

Random thoughts, picture, etc.

this is what you get when you let a 4 year old take pictures.

And this is how your house looks with having three crazy kids all day, a kid/husband, and a migrane. awesome.


I'm currently babysitting anywhere from 2-6 kids 5 days a week plus i have my own. After 2 weeks and no job for the husband I decided to try and start working evenings and sundays leaving me with no days off if i get the kind of hours i want. this is not complaining. God has blessed me with the kids i have, the parents i work for, and the income i am receiving. plus since the hubby has been home he is a huge help. i dont need to worry about simply going to the bathroom, for now anyways. calling my old boss this evening and telling him i would like to come back was a little hard considering how i left. but hey at least i already know how to do the job and well, i already have had more time in there than one person, and i know every regular customer. sure not putting jonah to bed everyday will be a bummer and the hubby will have to make due without my dinners some nights but it will feel good to be making all the money! since i went back to work 5 weeks after having jonah and left 3 months later i know i can do it now. i left before because they made me close 3-4 nights a week so that meant getting off work around 10 when jonah was awake still adam had to be up for work at 3! this did not make him happy. but right now i'm hoping that they will need me a good amount. i tried to convince a friend that works there to call off a lot and she wasn't having it! oh well.

Random thoughts:

God has been doing really cool stuff for us lately. Adam and I read out of 3 devotions every night before bed and one night (in this joyce meyer devotion) it said to try and pray to God about even the little stuff. it sounds so simple but if you really think about it, God doesn't want you to be upset, sad, frustrated about things, even the little things. so ever since then i have tried to at least talk to Him about my feelings and ask Him to help out. so really cool things have been happening and I love it. : )


Since I became a Christian every once in a while when I am really worshipping and my eyes are closed, I get this sensation like I'm a little kid and God is holding me by my hands spinning me around. I'm not crazy! Promise! When I was little my grandpa used to always do that with me
and I always say God just knows how much I always loved that!


Random pictures : )